There is a lot going through my mind this morning with everything that seems to be going on in the news. One of the bigger stories right now is the story of Jim Kelly. His wife, Jill, has been posting a lot on Instagram and twitter and it just makes my heart ache for them. They have been through so much in their lives as it is and now they are facing a possible loss of their husband and father. The pain of losing a father is nothing I would ever wish on my worst enemy. The pain leaves a whole that no one could possibly fill. My dad has been gone 11 years now and yet I still have night mares about the tragic way he died, about what life would be like if he was still here, and much more. I often wake up in the middle of the night crying and yearning for him to hold me. I miss him more and more everyday. I wish there was something , anything I could do to change our circumstances. They fact that I know in great detail what this family may have to go through, tears me apart. I yearn and pray everyday that a miracle would happen for them. No girl should have to suffer the loss of a parent, especially a father. A father is a girls first love, her first prince to save the day. The man that will pick her up after heart break. The one who will walk her down the aisle and so much more. I pray that they'll find a cure for this terrible disease that also took my grand father away from me just two years after father passed. Cancer is such a terrible disease that I think effects everyone in one way or another. If it's actually battling cancer yourself, or caring for a fragile family member who is becoming weaker by the day. Or even if you are a family member or friend who has to watch a love one suffer day in and day out. I pray for the Kelly family as well as anyone else who has been touched by cancer. Not only for the comfort while in such a difficult time but also so that they may see a miracle! I may not have seen one in my life when I lost my dad to a terrible accident or my grandpa to lung cancer but u trust and believe that they happen everyday!

Sandy Hook

  Its been all over the news and social media sites about this tragedy at Sandy Hook Elementary School. Its been almost a week and yet I still get so emotional thinking about it. 20 kids, 20 babies if you ask me, that lives were taken too soon. It makes me sick to think about it. But I find that's all I do. I think. What good is thinking though without action? Many people have made endless comments on many social media networks that range from bringing God back into schools to radical gun law changes. All these discussions, from what I have seen, is just dividing the country at a time when we should be uniting. America is a melting pot and everyone has their opinions, but why attack someone for their opinion?
  Ann Curry had a challenge. A 26 acts of kindness challenge. To remember every victim of that tragic day. Instead of arguing over gun control and God, go out and show kindness to a stranger in memory of a victim. Help the needy, donate to a food bank, make a difference. Turn this tragedy into a blessing for someone else.
  I personally am doing this in my photography business. In memory of Olivia, giving away a free photo shoot to a family in need. For people who are financially struggling, a family photo shoot is somethin they may not be able to afford. But from personal experience, I know first hand how much a simple image can mean to a family. Its that in which I find my most joy.
  This Christmas there will be 26 families who's hearts will be breaking all over again. I know first hand how a Christmas can be without a loved one and how difficult this time Is for families. Christmas should be a time of happiness and joy, but for them it will only be heartache and sorrow. Keep them in prayer and keep them in thought. Never let them be forgotten  and keep them alive in your acts of kindness. Show the world this tragedy is not going to tear this country apart, but bring us together.
  Instead of dividing, we need to unite. Unite to remember every victim. Unite to keep our country strong. Unite in kindness. Unite. ♥

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  As I sit here at work, so many things for through my mind on what to say. My like has changed so much in a year and a half and frankly I really don't think I am the same person I was in my last post. For the better of course. I no longer work at the days care that made me so miserable, and I no longer sit in class all day either. I graduated in may with my degree in photography and life couldn't be better. I have launched my own business and utility his been such a success. I have also been running my Mary Kay business as well and making some awesome pay. :) I got a new job and I absolutely love it. Besides changing jobs and such in my life, I have also come to a lot of conclusions on people in my life. The ones who will always mean something to you and the ones that just come for a season. I've had a lot of ups and downs lately but my true friends have stuck by  my side. I've had my heart broken a few times as well, but I just pick up the pieces and keep chugging along.
  I often complain about all the tough things I've had to go through in my life. But the more I reflect on the good, as one good friend told me to do, I realize I am such a strong person and have so much going for me in life. I'm also realizing who the true people are in my life and who I really don't need. it sounds like such a small thing, but its made a huge difference in my life. I a, incredible thankful for the people who take time out of their busy lives to sound time with me.
God puts struggles in your life but I once read that god only gives is strongest soldiers the toughest battles. I need to look qt my struggles as more of a blessing than a misery. It may be tough but its gonna mold me into a better person, and the one  I'm meant to be. The more I pray, the more I realize this to be true.
  May god bless you and may you feel his warmth this Christmas season. ♥

Spotlights

Was driving tonight taking a friend home at about ten pm and i was driving up they hill and saw this truck moving very slowly on the side of the road with a spotight out his window. Some people who live in the city would probably think this is very weird but living out here in the country its really not. The man was spotlighting for deer. Brought me back to the times when i was a little girl and my dad would take us out spotlighting on the side and back roads. It was always a fun time and i remember on numerous occasions actually seeing some look right back to us! it was so awesome as a kid. I also remember my Dad always telling me to pull the light in when we would pass a random house. Never understood quite why but he would remind me that it was because we didnt wanna shine such a bright light into someones living room. Now that im older seems pretty obvious but its out of this stupid litttle question that shows my Dads patience. ALways wanting to spend time with me and make sure i understood and never getting frustrated. This is just one of the few memories i have of him of the thousands that are as precious as jewels to me. Just thought Id share since this special memory was brought to my mind today! Love him!! RIP Daddy! 2.17.60~2.11.03

Life

It funny how life works out. So many people have so many different opinions and philosophies on life and how to deal with certain things but I honestly don't think any of them really apply to my life. I mean ya there are a lot of quotes and such that relate but nothing really covers every basis. Life knocks you down and you gotta get back up and keep going. You have hard days and voodoo days and you pray the good out weigh the bad and that you also learn from the bad. I think it's crazy how you can have such a horrible day buy yet such an awesome one the next. I had a pretty rough night last night but I went to bed put it Past me and kept on chugging today. Thanks to awesome friends I had a great day laughing my butt of and just enjoying life. We made my grandpa's recipe for homemade orange donoughts! Usually that would make me sad and miss him but instead it did the opposite. Made me happy and remember all the good times we had and shared with him! We watched the brave little toaster which I hadn't seen since I was a kid and it made me feel like a kid again. Just a good night in with family and enjoying the little things in life! I heard an amazing quote today from my mom and it said this. "do you know why your windshield is bigger than your read window? It's cuz what's ahead of you is alot more important than what's behind you. Leave whats in the past in the past and stay focused on what's ahead!" I guess what I'm trying to say is that if you will have rough days. We all do but God puts them there for a reason and he also gives us the good days to go with them. Don't get discouraged but try to stay opptomistic. Better days are ahead. It may be raining now but it can't storm forever. Get out there and look for your rainbow. The promise from your heavenly savior who loves you more than anything!!!!!

New Semester!!!

Well its been almost a whole semester since i have been on here! feels like forever! i had a great thanksgiving and Christmas! i loved being off of school and just having more time for myself. we were low in kids at the daycare so i didnt get many hours which isnt too good for my bank account but i took the time to hang out with some awesome friends and just relax! Its time to go back to school and ive been back for about a week now. I hated the fact of having to think that i had to go back but now that im back in the routine of everything i feel much more organized with my days and schedule. I have been coming quite a ways with my photography as well. I have three photos in the Burchfield Nature and Art Gallery in West Seneca and today i entered one of my Niagara Falls pictures into the CEPA gallery in Buffalo! All of them but one is shown above! SO excited about both! The CEPA show for sure though! I was having a hard time deciding what picture to enter and my teacher just loves my Niagara Falls pictures so thats the one i chose! SO exciting and such a way to get my name out there as an artist! CEPA is the first art gallery in Buffalo that was set apart just for photography which is awesome. I am so thankful that God has allowed me the oppurtunity to make such beautiful work out of his work! Someone once told me that i do an amazing work with my photography. Although it was a very nice compliment, the truth of it is, uis that it isn'y my work! God does amazing work and I'm just trying to show everyone how beautiful it really is! It is absolutly breathtaking and i love to just go outside and walk around or drive around and just see what beautiful things you can see from our own back yard right here in western New York! Im gettng very excited for this semester and what God has in store for me during this time in my life!! Hope everyone has an awesome day and praise God for the beauty around it. Even though we dont always like the snow, if we really look at its beauty we will all be astounded! Have an awesome day!! and God bless!

New Semester!!!

Well its been almost a whole semester since i have been on here! feels like forever! i had a great thanksgiving and Christmas! i loved being off of school and just having more time for myself. we were low in kids at the daycare so i didnt get many hours which isnt too good for my bank account but i took the time to hang out with some awesome friends and just relax! Its time to go back to school and ive been back for about a week now. I hated the fact of having to think that i had to go back but now that im back in the routine of everything i feel much more organized with my days and schedule. I have been coming quite a ways with my photography as well. I have three photos in the Burchfield Nature and Art Gallery in West Seneca and today i entered one of my Niagara Falls pictures into the CEPA gallery in Buffalo! All of them but one is shown! SO excited about both! The CEPA show for sure though! I was having a hard time deciding what picture to enter and my teacher just loves my Niagara Falls pictures so thats the one i chose! SO exciting and such a way to get my name out there as an artist! CEPA is the first art gallery in Buffalo that was set apart just for photography which is awesome. I am so thankful that God has allowed me the oppurtunity to make such beautiful work out of his work! Someone once told me that i do an amazing work with my photography. Although it was a very nice compliment, the truth of it is, uis that it isn'y my work! God does amazing work and I'm just trying to show everyone how beautiful it really is! It is absolutly breathtaking and i love to just go outside and walk around or drive around and just see what beautiful things you can see from our own back yard right here in western New York! Im gettng very excited for this semester and what God has in store for me during this time in my life!! Hope everyone has an awesome day and praise God for the beauty around it. Even though we dont always like the snow, if we really look at its beauty we will all be astounded! Have an awesome day!! and God bless!